Science of our own Self...the chemistry within!

One of the roles that I have enacted in my Life is of a Chemistry Teacher for my lovely kids. I don’t know how I faired as one but what I do know is I have always related the beautiful subject to our beautiful life. People say its tough to relate chemistry to Life but all we talk about in life is "Chemistry". Our chemistry with parents, siblings, friends, foes; chemistry with studies, school, then college; chemistry with girl friends, career, job; chemistry with happiness, pleasures of life, sorrow and finally everyone ends up thinking about chemistry with one self, when the time comes to divert the look from outside to the inside, a look deep within! And then we embark on a new journey, where we discover ourselves and our chemistry with nature, God whatever name we want to give the soul deep within.

Our Life begins just like the Universe did, of course I cant call it a Big Bang but a birth from within a Mother, a birth from a small foetus which is nothing but a highly compressed and ordered form of life. Our Mother goes through all the pains to give birth to us and like the initial explosion of the Universe born are we with scaled down explosion of course! (don’t start comparing your own size to that of the Universe)

So, our life begins with sudden conversion of order into disorder. The people who have studied second law of thermodynamics in secondary level Science would relate to this. The second law states "A natural spontaneous process is sudden and irreversible". So is our birth! I cannot go back to my origins, I have to look ahead. From this phase to every other phase in my life, everything that I have done spontaneously has been sudden and the effects generally irreversible.

We spent so much time and energy to convert the order inside us into the disorder outside, by whatever we do as humans through our karma and influence of our beliefs. Childhood is all about that innocent spontaneity which we still miss. As we grow up, just like the Universe, remember, we keep doing things, some of which can increase order around us, that is our surroundings, but most of the things spread disorder or as we say in Chemistry, they tend to increase the Entropy of the surroundings.

The toughest thing in life is to practice "self control" because it forces us to go against our nature. It binds us, it takes us back to our own self and it defies the law of spontaneity! Its so easy to blame others, to complain, to show emotions like anger, hatred….but why it isn't easy to introspect, to find our own faults and correct ourselves, to show true love, to have real faith in people, to be self composed and to be able to control our emotions…because its not natural. And to do anything which is not natural we need to grow and we need to search our own self now and then, again and again and to find the answers inside.

In my perception the purpose of life can be related to converting the disorder into order again, in whatever form we can, in whatever way we can contribute. Because only then we will find the real happiness, the real salvation. Only those people who will be able to go against the very law of nature, will be able to lead people to some purpose. Only those who will find their own faults and shortcomings instead of others' and correct them and convert the true thoughts into Karma will reach closer to the Supremo, God, as we know Him. For me, my God resides deep inside me and I want to put an effort to reach Him defying whatever laws I need to. I know its only a statement right now and I have miles to go, because I still behave naturally and many times lose my chemistry with myself, the reactions are not slow and reversible but are sudden and dangerous.

So, lets give this a thought because I firmly believe that many of my peers, my friends, my team members, my people, my students….whosoever is reading this must be in some or the other tangle of Life and according to me the solution lies within. The solution is "Disorder to Order…" not vice-versa…

                                                                                                                            (written on 24 Sept '10)